Waiting is so hard

So I find myself browsing at wedding dresses and bridesmaid dresses lately. I keep waiting for the proposal and its so hard. We both want to get married and talk about it but waiting for the ring and the proposal is so hard, when you know its coming but you don't know when. Last night he told me hes so tired of calling me JUST his girlfriend. I'm like ya so make it fiance then wife lol. Our one year is May 9th so I'm really hoping it happens then but I just don't know. And of course I want to be surprised so I can't just be like so when are you going to finally do this... but its so hard being patient and not knowing. geez....